Bye bye patience, Hello cranky pants!

Well, our morning and afternoon weren't great today (Friday). The boys and I seemed to have woken up on the wrong side of the bed. Everything went wrong, from the time we got up, and continued on until Marc came home, at the end of the day. I dislike starting my day this way. It is so frustrating! It does nothing to help keep the Spirit in our home and sure doesn't make any of us happy.

Even though I have tried to keep my voice down and try desperately to be patient, my sons decided that they just were NOT in the mood to listen, and do the simplest thing I would ask them to do. While I somehow manage to not yell at them, I did however raised my voice more time than I would have like to. When days like these come along, I don't feel good about myself and my shortcomings.

I HATE THOSE DAYS! I hate that it makes me lose patience. I hate that it turns me into a mean mom. I hate that I am not at all feeling like I should deserve my babies's  love. I hate that those days come so unexpectedly.
Nevertheless, when I finally catch a break from all the madness, I do appreciate the quietness it brings and often ponder about the lesson I probably needed to learn. I don't always know what that lesson is but I enjoy pondering about it. It is calming and it keeps me from beating myself up about my "failures". As cliche as this might sound, we are not perfect but we can learn from our many imperfections and strive to get better the next time. Today for example, I learn that I just needed to RELAX. Really, that is all I needed to do. Let my kids be kids!

I am glad our evening was more enjoyable! Marc took us out for dinner in Lethbridge, then we went shopping. We had a great time! we laughed a lot, goofed around a bit and just enjoyed each other's company. We hugged and kissed here and there and bought a few treats for the drive home. I am grateful for my husband. He always picks me up and cheers me up when days like these come for a visit. I never need to ask, he just does it.

I am grateful for my children's ability to see past my shortcomings and still love me like only they know how. Another, not so great day on this journey of motherhood/parenthood. I Love the good days and sometimes learn from the bad ones. Being a mom is not always easy. But I STILL love it no matter how crazy it can get.